First Place Homework Assignement

4-30-09
I am summing up the whole week into one journal entry for our first health group. The first question was Today’s emotions? Well I can say for the entire week, I felt as though I had absolutely no control over my emotions. One minute I was crying and the next I was laughing. Half the time I did not even know what I was crying for.

Do my emotions affect my food choices? Of course they do. The problem that I am having right now is taking too much control of my food choices. It used to be as I went through hard times I would turn to food. This was my way comfort. I prayed about this for a long time and the Lord has helped me to see that I do not need to turn to food. Now I have gone to the other extent of this problem. With this week being a hard week emotionally, I just chose not to eat a few times. I was telling myself that it was fine because at least I was not turning to food. I know better than that! We need food to survive and be healthy. I have got to learn to lean on the Lord and not myself.

Did I open the Bible every day this week? No…this was a huge reality check for me. I have this internal conflict going on and it is causing me to turn away from the Lord instead of turning to him. The pain that I have is so deep; I just can’t bear to open up my heart to it. The ironic thing is that when I have opened my bible this week I have been encouraged. Yet, somewhere in my heart I don’t want this encouragement; because that means I must accept my circumstance and move on. I don’t want to. I want to stay right where I am. I am defiant and disobedient, but at least I am honest.

A few scriptures that I have read that spoke to me: Psalm 42:1 As the deer pants for streams of water, So my soul pants for you, my God, Psalm 62:5 Yes, my soul, find rest in God, My hope comes from him and Romans 5:1 Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.
The truth that I found in these words is:

1. “My God” I need to proclaim that he is my God, amidst all circumstances!

2. I picture a deer on a hot day getting a sip of water from a stream and then I picture myself receiving the water of life from Jesus. As I wait eagerly for just a drop of his living water.

3. I must find my hope in the Lord and not in earthly things for that is where I will get rest.

4. My faith in the Lord needs to be stronger than any other circumstance. Just look and see what Jesus did so that our faith could mean so much.

I pray many times throughout the day. He gives me the strength to make it through the day. Without prayer all hope would be lost.

I would rate this week overall okay! The Lord gave me the strength and endurance to exercise and make healthy food choices. I need to work on my spiritual and emotional being. I need to allow the Lord to do this work within me, and I need to be okay with where I am at each day. I am thankful that the Lords mercies are new everyday!

Looking back on my week, something that I could have done differently was to use my food journal. I have not done a very good at keeping record of what I have been eating. That is my goal for this next week.

I would like to share one thing. Do not get to comfortable in your walk with Jesus. We are in a world where things happen and they happen fast. We need to be strong in the God’s word so that we can have the courage to move on. In Joshua 1:9 it says “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God, will be with you where ever you go.” I got that word last night and that is what I am praying for myself and for our group. We need to be strong and courageous.