I am tired of feeling so sad

Today we had a Christmas Party at the VFW hall for friends and family. Alot of people were there. I do not know why I went. I distanced myself from as many people as I could. I did not want to be there. I just want to feel "normal", again. A Few people said they were sorry and asked me how I am doing. How am I suppose to answer how I am doing. I would like to say I feel like crap. I lost my baby. Most days I don't want to drag my butt out of bed, but do because I have too. No, I politley say, I am fine or what ever. The truth is, I am not fine. I am sad, angry, and I hurt all the time. Everything I see or do reminds me of our a baby.

Lord,

Please help me to find peace amongst all this hurt. I don't want to be angry or bitter. I want to feel good again. Lord, we want a baby to hold, love, and raise. I ask that you give us that Lord. A healthy baby and a healthy pregnancy. Lord lift our fears and help us to find you through this.

Amen