Lord,
Please help me to feel better. There are times that I think I am getting through this. I can feel the healing happening, then there are times that I feel like I am drowning. It takes all that I have to breath. Lord, I don't like this feeling. I need your covering.

As I walked through Walmart the other day, I saw ornaments that can be inscribed, similar to the ones that Richard and I have gotten every year. This time as I saw them, I walked right past them. My thought was, I don't want to remember this Christmas. The year that I lost our baby. That is how I feel today. I do not want to be bitter. I want to remember this Christmas in a good way, but how? Lord, help me please.

tearfully yours,

Amen