I can not believe that I am 31..

Being in my 30's has taken a toll on my body. It is amazing the aches and pains that I have daily. I even see those aches and pains coming out in Richard. I remember in my 20's feeling like my body hurt all the time and Richard never having an ache or a pain. Not any more. It seems like his wrist, feet, toes, back, knees, etc are in pain. I feel for him and I feel for all those in their 30's having pain.

Richard and I went out to dinner with Thomas and Leah for Thomas and my Birthday. We had a great time. After dinner I took Richard to Cheeba Hut to go to their friends and family celebration. Richard wanted me to go with him. The problem was that he had told the owners about me being pregnant and had not seen them since we miscarried. I just could not face them. I have never met them, however I did not want to go thru the questions of how far along I was and so forth. I am so tired of this! It is just so hard! Richard says he just wishes that this was done. Me too! I just want to scream sometimes.

It feels like I am having to face a fear everyday....Losing our baby was one of my biggest fears. Having to share that with people is so hard.

Lord,

Please help me face this miscarriage. I don't want to hide from it. Lord, give me courage to get through this. I also pray for all the aches and pains in this world and ask for healing. Let the 30's be a blessing to Richard and I.

Amen