struggles...

I thought a good subject for me today is to talk about the struggles that I face on a daily basis:

I have a hard time believing that I will ever lose this weight and be healthy.

I have fears that if I do ever lose this weight I won't be happy with where I am at.

I struggle with simple food choices. If I eat alot at breakfast, I feel like I have blown it and allow myself to eat as much as I want for the rest of the day. In my mind I am thinking that I will control my eating the next day.

I wonder if I will ever get food out of my mind. Sometimes I feel like it is all that I think about.

I am so tired of these same struggles and I hate knowing that I have allowed the enemy to have a foot hold into my life.

Dear Heavenly father,

Forgive me for my doubts. I know that you are faithful and I need not doubt you. Lord help me to come to you when I am doubting. Help me to remember all of your promises. Lord, help me to get food out of my mind and help my focus to be on you. You are the one that substains me. Lord I ask that you be my nourishment. Lord draw me closer to you as I fall on my knees before you. I love you. Amen

Pictures

Most recent picture.

79 pounds gone!


The picture in the orange shirt was in November of 2008. In the blue was 12 weeks later.